Saturday, February 26, 2011

:'(

Selalu begitu...

Seems like they never look at me..

Always love the perfect one daughter...
But I'm not perfect, di mata mereka....

I always do something wrong, always make a mistake. Everyday wouldn't complete without make a mistake.



I'm sick, I'm tired but nobody knows...

Dan hal itu bikin gue cape... Cape dalam arti kata tertentu, di mana satu titik kejemuhan yang susah untuk dihilangin. I'm tired of being a perfect daughter...

Sunday, February 20, 2011

New Haircut!

Dear World,

Hello I just had my haircut, actually I got it on Friday!
Very short hair cut. Maybe you'll get shock! Hahaha. Okay, I'll post my pics later. See ya :D

xoxo,
Vera Ciu


ps: Ah I feel so fresh! Watch out the new me is coming to break a rule!

If Eyes Could Speak

Standing close to me close enough to reach perfect time to tell her
But I can't even put the words together
Bevelizing eyes getting in my disguise
Can't you see me hiding?

What am I afraid of a finding?
I know what I'm thinking
But the words won't come out

If eyes could speak
One look would say everything
About the way you smile,
The way you laugh
The way you dress,
The way your beauty leaves me breathless

If eyes could speak
I wouldn't have to talk


Here we go again trying to pretend My hands are steady
The way she looks tonight isn't helping
Vision's getting blur gotta calm my nerves, it's now or never
There's only one way to the answer

I know what to tell her
But the words won't come out

If eyes could speak
One look would say everything
About the way you smile,
The way you laugh
The way you dress,
The way your beauty leaves me breathless

If eyes could speak
I wouldn't have to talk


Maybe I can finally get it right
Finally get the nerve to speak my mind
And tell you the things I can't say
And baby I would look into your eyes
And maybe you will finally realize
Words are just words anyway

If eyes could speak
One look would say everything
About the way you smile,
The way you laugh
The way you dress,
The way your beauty leaves me breathless

If eyes could speak
I wouldn't have to talk


I tell you all about
The way you smile,
The way you laugh
The way you dress,
The way your beauty leaves me breathless

If eyes could speak
I wouldn't have to talk

 




 Watch out! Devon Werkheiser's spamming!


PS: Devon Werkheiser, dear you I'm in love with you since I saw you on 'Love at the First Hiccup'... You just superduper cute then you have blue eyes that could make me fall in love with you, yes your eyes could speak and you wouldn't have to talk... :)




Tuesday, February 15, 2011

Monday, February 14, 2011

Happy Valentine's Day!





Happy Valentine's Day!

Yeah, today is valentine's day! Whoa seems like love is in the air yaa :D



Today is monday too, which is on Valentine's day I'm still goin to school. Go study. But fortunately, My class only serious on Biology, Chemistry and Mandarin. And at the rest of our school time, we're only singing together, joking, laughing, and hell yeah that make my love for my class deeper than yesterday. Oh the best moment when I took my Math Class. We just pushed her and begged her, 'PLEASE TODAY IS VALENTINES DAY. WE SHOULD SHARE LOVE, NOT GOING TO STUDY!' Yeah seems like that. We begged, and we had an idea to entertain Bu Rina.. So, we ask Mario to play his guitar. And there's Erick too. We were singing together, laughing together. Seriously, I love goin to school if we don't study. But hey, we're going to school for one purpose rite? Getting smarter and become an educated person.
Okay, when we have no idea to wasted math's time, Erick asked Bu Rina to tell us her love story.
In short, she fell in love with a man who comes from different religion. Yes, she's in love with him. And lucky her, the man have a same feeling (until now). In short again, they decided to not continue they relationship. Because of religion....
Then she said 'Kalau kamu sayang sama orang, kalau memang tidak bisa kita miliki. Hanya melihat ia bahagia, pasti kita ikut bahagia. Itu yang namanya cinta'

Whoa? Is that true? For me yes, it's true.
So, ppl! I don't want to talk about this. Just happy valentine's day!

PS: Don't worry if you're single, girls./boys God is looking down at you right now and thinking "I'm saving the best for you, my child"

Saturday, February 12, 2011

Fruitless Attempt

Love is about making chances...

How to make a chances? 
If there's no way to make it,
If she/he won't give it?
And what If God won't make it, 

so it's a fruitless attempt...

We tried, We failed, but at least we tried. Right?

Thursday, February 10, 2011

Please, stop being perfect

Yeah, I'm not okay. I feel like I could cry everyday, everynight. But I won't do that.
I just got the result of math test, and yeah I failed. 5,58! That's my score! I tried, I studied, but yeah I failed! Hell yeah, and I don't know why, seems like I'm down now. 
Oh anyway I won't talk about my score. I just want to write something to my blog, something about my condition.
I've a friend, she's a good one. Really, a good friend. But, can you stop being perfect? Like you know everything (In fact, yeah you know). Please, you torture myself, just like you're gonna kill me slowly but sure. I'm tired, really.
I'm sick now.
I'm not okay now.
You made me feel stupid.
I know you're a good friend for me, you're smart. But you could make me feel like a sinner too. 
Gaah, I don't know what I'm talking about. 

Dear you, please stop being perfect...
So, that's the end of my story for today.
Ciao!

ps: Today's physics test really made me sick.

Wednesday, February 9, 2011

Alive...


Yes, I want to be alive. Alive means, do something great for myself and for everyone around me. Something that I'm gonna do with my heart. Do something I like and I love. But seems like I regret something that I've done... Seriously, I'm too scared now if I take a wrong class. I feel like oh holy Jesus Science Class is really really like a hell for me :( I'm lost now.

Really,  I don't know how to fix it... Maybe it's too late.. Very late...

Money Can Buy Law

Hello World!

Hari ini saya dikejutkan dengan berita yang begitu cepat menyebar di twitter tentang Ibu dari my favorite author, yaitu Alanda Kariza. Loh, apa yang terjadi dengan ibunya? Untuk kilas lengkapnya bisa dibaca di blog nya, yang dengan postingan yang berjudul 'Ibu, 10 Tahun Penjara, 10 Milyar Rupiah' 


Ketika saya membaca postingan itu, I don't know why I felt sad for her Mom. Sepertinya ada sesuatu yang membuat saya menyadari how cruel is that? Sejujurnya saya masih menjadi seorang pelajar berumur 16 tahun yang menuju 17 tahun, singkatnya saya masih awam. Tapi melihat postingan dari Alanda Kariza membuat saya berpikir lagi, kenapa Gayus yang kita tahu kasusnya sedang diperbicarakan di Indonesia sekarang, apalagi Gayus hanya mendapat hukuman 7 tahun dan denda hanya 300 juta rupiah? Tapi kenapa Ibu dari Alanda Kariza mendapatkan hal yang begitu berat?  Apalagi setelah membaca blog, dari awal saya tidak tahu permasalahan jelasnya bagaimana, saya hanya mendengar kalau Papa sedang bercerita tentang Kasus Century, ada nama-nama seperti Robert Tantular yang selalu disebutkan Papa. Saya awalnya hanya bepikir 'Who cares?' tetapi seketika saya membaca postingan tersebut, membuat saya berpikir lagi kenapa orang tidak bersalah harus mengalami tuntutan seberat itu? 

Gayus – kita semua tahu kasusnya, kekayaannya, kontroversinya – divonis 7 tahun penjara dan denda 300 juta. Robert Tantular dituntut hukuman penjara selama 8 tahun dan Hermanus Hasan Muslim dituntut hukuman penjara selama 6 tahun dari PN Jakarta Pusat. Lalu, mengapa Ibu 10 tahun? Setolol dan seaneh apapun saya, saya cukup waras untuk tidak sanggup mengerti konsep tersebut menggunakan nalar dan logika saya. Apakah karena keluarga kami tidak memiliki uang? Ataukah karena Ibu justru terlalu baik?

Begitu kata Alanda Kariza

Pertanyaan yang keluar apakah karena Ibu justru terlalu baik? Jadi begini proses hukum di Indonesia? Orang baik yang dihukum? Apa konsep hukum mulai berganti menjadi KUHP (Kasih Uang Habis Perkara) ? Saya tidak mau banyak berbicara tentang Proses Hukum yang terjadi, tapi lebih baik buat kita generasi muda untuk sedikit peduli dengan hal ini, kan tidak harus orang tua saja yang menanggapi hal seperti itu kan? 
Coba kalau kita memposisikan diri kita di posisi Alanda Kariza, coba kalau ibu kita mengalami hal itu? What will we do? If I were her, ofcourse I will write a post like she did. Bagaimana sih rasanya, ketika Alanda sendiri sudah membanggakan Indonesia dengan membentuk Indonesian Youth Conference, dan mampu mewakili Indonesia tapi ketika ketidakadilan menimpa ibunya she just felt like she won't do something great for Indonesia, she won't make Indonesia proud of her. 

Ya, Indonesia Masih Ada. Tapi ada untuk siapa? Untuk mereka kah yang ber-uang? Memiliki jabatan yang bisa membeli hukum? Baru kali ini saya bisa berpikir kritis (Apakah iya?) Tetapi kenyataannya sedang begitu, negara kita yang katanya berlandaskan hukum, tetapi hukum apa? Hukum 'KUHP' kah? 


Sekarang, yang diinginkan Alanda Kariza, yang diinginkan ibunya, dan tentunya orang-orang yang bernasib sama adalah kepastian hukum yang jelas. Sebuah keadilan. Hanya itu. Sebuah hidup normal. 

ps: We can help her! Spread the post that she wrote to your facebook or twitter. Let people know, your friends now what happen with Indonesia. And don't forget to put a hashtag on your twitter #HelpAlanda
And ofcourse She need our prayer, let we pray for her mom! Tomorrow her mom will read her pledooi! Now, let's start to pray! Ciao!

Monday, February 7, 2011

F = For Fantastic





This week gonna be the hardest week ever!
Today, I had Math Test  (F! I just can do 4 from 6 and I'm not sure with that)
Tomorrow, I've Chemistry test
Wednesday, Biology test is waiting for me
Thursday, physics gonna make me sick

Yeah, I will do my best, just wish me luck!

Ciao! :D

Sunday, February 6, 2011

Mini Heart Attacks

Well, yesterday (I mean saturday, since today is sunday so we can call it yesterday)

I'm pretty much happy, oh no I'm very happy. Because I got a morning text from Andrea (btw, who is andrea? Next time I will post about her) and we talked a lot. Ofcourse she asked me about him (My 'him'). She asked me 'About the pressie'. Well, yesterday I decided to text him, like this 'Can we meet up or something today? Well, ive a plan i will go to Galaxy to buy a new senar gitar. Maybe we can meet up and I can give you a late-bday present?
yeah then that whole day I was texting with Andrea. Well, I won't talk about Andrea so let's we skip to the story.
Okay , honestly at first I'm quite disappointed because he didn't text me back. But, at 3 pm i was lying on my bed and watching tv, then my phone was ringing. Oh, bloody hell for the first time I saw his name on my phone calling me! I absolutely, gOt a first mini heart attack. I tried to control my voice, and said 'Halo?' and yeah to hear his voice calling my name and only said 'Eh' can make a second mini heart attack. Here is the conversation

Me: Halo?
Him: Eh, bisa ketemuan sekarang ga?
Me: Eh? Ketemuan? Bisa-bisa. Dimana?(while I tried to control my voice, my heart was beating faster than normally)
Him: Di deket sekolah lo.
Me: Oh okeoke. Di sekolah lo. Eh sekolah gue!
Him: Okeee.

And then I put the pressie to my bag and went to galaxy.
When I arrived, I didn't saw him. So, I decided to go to somewhere (yeah to wasting my time). But, because I'm too stoopid and I'm too afraid if I leave the place for a long time I can't meet him. So, I only take my motorcyle like this (I made the map)


(7-10X MUTERIN YAA)




Like you can see on that map, the pink spot is the finally the place he's waiting for me (yeah because at that time i just took my last lap)

Lets talk about the meeting...
I was wearing my class shirt, and he's wearing his blue shirt with Speedo's logo, and he used his bike (His lovely se-li). Then he said 'Hi' with his big smile, and I'm just like an idiot, I said 'Hi' too. Okay, that my 3rd mini heart attack. We talked a lot, first he showed me his superfucking cute face and said 'Wheres my present?' and his hands like a beggar. And I acted like 'Duh, kadonya ketinggalan.' and he showed me his disappointed face and just laughed, and I can't stand it so I gave it to him. And he just surprised because I wrapped the present with a Iron Man wrap paper. He said thank you, and wtf I don't know what he's doing with it, he shaked my pressie and asked me 'Ini bom yaa?'
Then blahblahblah we're talking a lot, talked about a bicycle especially. Then at the end, I've to face it that the time is up...


Oh Jeez, I just can't believe it how I want his voice call my name again, and how I want our skins meet again and make a mini-heart attack for me, how I want to see his smile, how I want to hear his laugh, and how I want him to be mine.
Look, I'm disgusting you with words kan?
But, seriously I really want it.

To be honest, I've same thought with Andrea. I mean same imagination. Andrea said 'I thought he kissed you or something?'
You wish girl! It's not a film or novel, when a woman/man give something nice and do something nice at the end of story they just kiss and show it to us like they already have their happy ending story.
But, wake up! Life isn't so easy like that. Hehehe.
Well, that's my story. About my mini heart attacks. I'm not good to write a long story use English and I won't make myself look like uuuhm writting a diary.
So, goodbye world! I hope you understand what I wrote (But I wish you don't)


ps: Andrea said "The guy's so lovely" Hey you! You so lovely but when we texting ? Jutek coy!

Ohyeah, blog, here's his text whenever he already opened the pressie:
"Hey ver, thx for your birthday present, i like it so much :) and that card too haha"
I made a cool birthday card for him. Really cool :D

Friday, February 4, 2011

To be honest...


To be honest, I'm sixteen and going to seventeen, and I'm on '20% people that haven't met yet the person they are going to marry'

Wednesday, February 2, 2011

Happy Birthday,

Hi you! A year older, that's what you are! I don't know why, I'm kinda excited to know that today is your Birthday. And would you believe if I couldn't sleep for a week before your birthday? Ofcourse you won't believe it. Why? Because I'm too afraid to ask you to go out only to meet me. I've prepared it, a month before your birthday I've bought you a nice pressie. And last Friday, I bought a paper wrap (And it's Iron Man) for you. And last night, I made a birthday card for you and I really spent my 2 hours for you. I won't ruin your birthday card. So, my brain worked really hard last night only just for a 3 or 5 sentences.

So, what I'm gonna say right now? Like on my tumblr post...
I'm secretly fall in love with you, and yeah like a hell I can't deny...

Happy Seventeen, and may all your dreams and wishes come true.

PS: Go make a myspace, and try to make a song for you and your band! I really want to hear your voice!

I want to be a Billionaire...

Hello world.
I'm kinda feel excited because today is Chinese New Year Eve, and tomorrow I'm going to celebrate Chinese New Year with my whole big family. I hope all my family will give me a lot of Rupiahs. I really want to spend my money for a new sneakers. I'm totally excited to know that I can buy a new sneakers on Sunday. I will ask my father to take me to Ambassador. So. I can go to Heaven (Recommended Shoes Store). Ohyeah, I think I will buy Nike SB, actually I really want SUPRA. But, I think it will make me look like I'm wearing a boots. So, I decided won't buy it. Ohya, with my Rupiahs I think I'll watch JakJam 2011 to with my friends (Lika and Winda). Yeah, I do love February. Beside I can spending my time with my Mom, Dad, and my siblings. Yeah, being rich for awhile!

Gaah, can't wait for tomorrow :)