Hi, how's life? I hope you guys are okay. Well, this is the second week of January in 2012. Guess who just got her first goodbye? Yes, it is me. I mean this is different. This is my first goodbye. And it is like really a goodbye. My friend just passed away yesterday. He was my senior and my friend on the court. He passed away when he was 22 years old. See? I know what you are going to say: 'Omg, he's still very young?', 'How can?'. That is true-- I mean he's got a big great wide future ahead of him. I hate to say this but it is true that the fact-- good man, die young. He was a good one, funny guy, smart yet talented one. And do you know what made him die? Lymph node cancer. I just cannot believe it. He got a cancer. I swear to God if I was interested in science, I'd dedicate my whole life finding a cure for cancer. I swear.
Death. One word that scares me out. Actually, I am not scared with death things. I just scared with the way I will die and the fact that I will leave everyone arounds me. I just scared if I have not done good things (Well, ofcourse not only me but you have done a good things. Even it is only once or twice). The fact that beside I am not only scared but curious of death. I have to admit it that I do fear of the pain I might go through before I die. Death means the last stage of life and the beginning of something new. Death is inevitable-- and with you fear the inevitable will only make you are not enjoy your life. Beside the fact death is unavoidable too. You and me just do not know when death will come-- maybe tomorrow, next month, next year, or after writing this post there will be a meteors fall to my house. We just should prepare ourselves and others for it.
Talking about death. The next thing that scares me out is-- what if everyone that you love leave you. Leave you like forever and you might see them in another life. I am not ready yet for that. I just want to see my dad and mom live until I marry and have a kids (I want to see them live and see my kids wedding). Nevertheless, I am not God. I am just a human who want to be happy and see everyone around me stick with me through the end. I know that sounds selfish. But, Morrie said 'Death ends a life; not a relationship.' So, that question makes me think all over again with death things. Why should I worry and scared like a hell?
“When someone is in your heart, they're never truly gone. They can come back to you, even at unlikely times.”
Living is a challenge and dying is easy. You could die when you sleep. You could die when you are at home-- watching your favorite movie. You could die when you eat bubblegum. You could die in anywhere, anytime, anyhow. There's a lot of way to die. And we just cannot deny the fact-- we are gonna die at the end. But living? You will never know what will come to you. Whether it is a good things or worse things.
Henceforth, I should prepare for it. I just put my faith in Him. Faith that can make me hear a whisper-- You are saved and you know that you will go to heaven.
Even Morrie said “The truth is, once you learn how to die, you learn how to live.”
We are growing older-- it is inevitable too. The fact that if you learn how to die, you learn how to live. Just live your life, enjoy every moments that come. Enjoy the moments when the problems come and try to hit you but at the end you will hit them back. And for now, I will enjoy my life. Do a good things, try something new, meet new people, forget the fear and this and that. Because, I will never know and you will never know our 'time' on this earth. We are only know-- we are here because we are not dealing with death, we are dealing with life.
Goodbye Kak Ricky Sonora. I will miss the fact that we cannot play basketball together anymore. Just see you in another life! Another new beginning life. Send my loves to Him. Good bye, I'll see you later! Your friends, your juniors, and everyone will miss you! So take care and watch your step! ☺
|It would be worth it...|
Currently listening: Science of Fear (The Temper Trap)