Saturday, June 1, 2013


Udah mau hampir setahun gue kuliah. Udah hampir setahun juga ketemu orang-orang baru. Udah hampir setahun juga jadi observer di lingkungan yang baru. Ketemu orang yang kayak gini, ketemu orang yang kayak gitu. Udah hampir setahun juga gue keluar dari comfort zone. Semuanya berjalan dengan begitu cepat. Gue cuman bersyukur gue ngga keterima PTN. Dulu gue merasa itu semua end of my world. Dulu gue bodoh (sekarang juga masih. Makannya gue belajar) kalau mau give up. Dulu ngga mau gue masuk Universitas Swasta. Tapi yang gue tahu sekarang udah gue jalani. Gue udah jadi mahasiswi dari Universitas Swasta di Jakarta. Gue ketemu temen-temen baru. Gue bersyukur buat hal itu. Gue percaya semuanya udah direncanain dengan baik sama Tuhan. Gue bersyukur banget.

Sekarang gue cuman mau bisa jadi survivor di kampus gue. Gue mau lulus kuliah dengan tempo yang sesingkat-singkatnya (3,5 years). Masih banyak mimpi yang terbengkalai. Gue masih mau sekolah di luar negeri. Study abroad. Gue ngga mau my dream is just a dream. Ngga. Gue ngga mau. Mungkin 3 tahun lagi pas gue nge-blog, semoga aja gue udah bisa nge-blog dari luar negeri. Bukan di sini. 

Menurut gue. Mimpi sama cita-cita jangan cuman didoain. Ngana pikir mimpi sama cita-cita itu jenazah. 

Mulai sekarang gue harus lebih berusaha. Gue harus bisa dari Ted Schmosby jadi Ted Mosby. Dia sering banget gagal tapi dia ngga berhenti. Selalu aja ada yang bikin dia harus keep going through no matter what happens

Sebelumnya cuman mau bilang terimakasih buat teman-teman baru yang saya temui selama setahun belakangan ini. Gue kuliah bukan cuman sekedar kuliah. Gue belajar banyak karakter baru. Gue bersyukur sekali boleh dikasih kesempatan ketemu orang-orang baru. Sisanya, yuk yang ketemu gue selama setahun belakangan ini kita keluar dari Universitas tercinta kita bersama-sama ya. Cuman mau bilang: SEMANGAT. Life is just like a roller-coaster. We're going through ups and downs. It's okay. 

Sekian buat hari ini. Terimakasih. 
Sincerely, Vera Ciu (Well known as Ciu)

PS: Buat junior yang lagi akan mencoba SBMPTN dan berbagai Ujian Mandiri yang akan datang. Semangat mencoba nya ya. Kalau ngga Tuhan kasih masuk ke situ berarti itu bukan yang terbaik dari Tuhan. Good luck, folks!

Thursday, March 28, 2013

To the next twenty years and more.

Today is another day, another bonus, and another chance for me to live. I thank God for everything ever happened in my life. Good and bad, when it comes from God it is always a good one. Today, I thank God for my parent. Today is my parent's wedding anniversary. They have been together for twenty years. Yes, twenty years. I wonder how does it feel living with the same person for twenty years. When you wake up, you see that same person. When you sleep, you sleep with that same person. You cook for that same person. For twenty years. Marriage kinda scares me at first. I am only afraid I will be get bored with that daily routines. Marriage is such a big deal for me. But wow until now my mom and dad still walk together on the same path. 

I have seen my parent fighting, yelling, not talking for a couple days or even worse for a weeks. When I was young, I really hated those things. I was really afraid that they were gonna end up with divorce thing. I was scared at that time. But, they have proved me one thing. True love does exist even it's not perfect.

True love is such a rare thing. True love doesn't come up wrapped-- already made. True love works for all those who work at it too. It needs a two human beings for it to work out. Two different human beings. I mean we all were born with a different perspective.
"Let love be genuine; hate what is evil, hold fast to what is good;
love one another with mutual affection;
outdo one another in showing honour.
Do not lag in zeal, be ardent in spirit, serve the Lord.
Rejoice in hope, be patient in suffering, persevere in prayer.
Contribute to the needs of the saints; extend hospitality to strangers.
Bless those who persecute you; bless and do not curse them.
Rejoice with those who rejoice, weep with those who weep.
Live in harmony with one another; do not be haughty, but associate with the lowly; do not claim to be wiser than you are.
Do not repay anyone evil for evil, but take thought for what is noble in the sight of all.
If it is possible, so far as it depends on you, live peaceably with all."  Romans 12: 9-18

Marriage is a transformation of two people into one masterpiece. 

"In marriage we are seeking to bring one another into fuller life...Marriage should transform, as husband and wife make one another their work of art". 
Such a beautiful description of marriage. My parent is working for a masterpiece. The masterpiece is being created over time with joy, sadness, laughs, tears, up, down, and this, and that. They make a beautiful mosaic-- colorful one. I am so sorry for those who gave up their marriage with divorce. But, I am so grateful beyond any words for my parent. They don't give up. They won't give up. Their marriage is such a wonderful legacy for me. 

It is easy to say "I love you" and other flowery words that will absolutely linger to the very core of our hearts. The thing is can take the responsibility and commitment for those words? People often say "I love you" but in reality they don't really understand what is love and how to love. My parent is not that kind of people. It's a rare thing to hear both of them saying those words. But they still prove me that they love each other without any reasons. It is such a bliss to see they treat each other in a right way. It makes me jealous to see both of them holding hand and just walk together. It is a beautiful moment to see both of them laugh and bickering each other like teenage romance. 

They have been a great parent for me. They have raised me and my sister to become a person. They have taught us a life. And to remind you again, they have been together for twenty years. Twenty years living with the same person. I just can't imagine it. 

I'm out of words. I don't know what I have to type anymore. At the end, I only want to say:

Thank you, mom.
Thank you, dad.
Thank you for everything that you guys have ever given to me. Thank you for your time, patience, and yes everything. Both of you are not perfect but because of your imperfections... It makes two of you perfect for me.
Just thank you. Thank you very much. I love two of you beyond any words, beyond any imagination, beyond anything. 

Dad and Mom. Please stay together. Don't quit. Don't give up.....

These two human beings are my parent. And they are the best parent I've ever had

PS: Cheers! To the next twenty years and more.

Tuesday, December 25, 2012

Happy Christmas

Hi, blog. Another Christmas with you. I'm sorry for being such a bad writer. I haven't touched you uhm for 3 months? Or more than 3 months? Or less?
Well, actually I can't stand my sleepiness again but I really want to write something right now. So, here we go I don't want to blabbering too much:

“Terimakasih, Tuhan Yesus.”

Yes ―Thank you, Lord Jessus for letting me keep breathing until now. Thank you because I'm still celebrating Your birthday with people that I love. Thank you for this life. Thank you for making me understand 'How beautiful life is'. In every tears, You'll always there to wipe my tears. In every laughters, You'll always there to laugh with me.

Lord Jesus, thank you for every breathe. Thank you for letting me know that life is a beautiful strugle. Thank you for making me always be a good and better one. Until the very time, I'll always love You.

I haven't been a good daughter for You, but You'll always be a good Father to me. But, Lord― I'm trying to be a good one for You. I'm just so blessed to have You in my life. I might not see You in person, but I can feel Your love.

Lord, You're very good to me. You were, are, and always will be my Father. No matter what happens. Until the very end, I'll stuck with You. I just can't imagine my life without You. Ah, quoted Kelly Clarkson. “My life would suck without You.”

I know, Lord. Christmas is not about giving and sharing love to each other (I know this is important too!). For me, Christmas is all about You.

“For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth on him should not perish, but have eternal life.” ― John 3:16

Christmas is not only about a present underneath a tress, stolen kiss under the mistletoe, have a very beautiful Christmas eve with people that you love. How come you always say “I am a son of God” if you don't even remember Your Father's birthday. If I say Christmas, first thing that come to you mind― what it is? If you answer 'Present!', well I guess Your Father's heart is broken. And actually, we're supposed to give Him a present not asking Him 'I want this and that' to Him.

So, let be a good child for Our Father. Because His greatest love, blessing, and everything― I were here typing this blog and you are here reading my blog.

Shall we continue the party? Our Father's party?

Happy Christmas, everyone.
Happy Birthday, Father.

Blessings from Heaven, kisses from me.

PS: I used my Blackberry to type this one. A new blogging experience.

Saturday, July 28, 2012

Dan ini, dan itu...

"Dan ini, dan itu, dan terbaik, dan terburuk, dan sesimpel, dan semudah, dan seindah, dan serumit, dan bukan siapa-siapa, dan segalanya. Dan upil, dan kentut. Dan sate padang, dan bubur Bang Yosi. Dan Starbucks, dan air putih. Dan susu coklat, dan John Green, dan semua hal indah di dunia ini. Dan kecoak, dan kodok, dan semua hal buruk di dunia ini. Dan matahari, dan awan, dan burung yang berkicau, dan burung yang tidak. Dan bulan, dan bintang, dan bintang jatuh, dan meteor yang jatuh. Dan semua hal di bumi ini yang nyata, dan yang tidak, dan semua hal yan indah, dan hal-hal yang tidak. Dan semua hal di galaksi ini yang tabu, dan semua alien yang nyata atau tidak nyata, dan semua hal yang kita percaya, dan belum kita percaya. Dan untuk beberapa alasan untuk menggunakan ini ':-)', dan beberapa alasan lain untuk menggunakan ini ':-('. Dan untuk itulah hal ini ada. Dan untuk itulah kamu, dan saya ada. Dan untuk itulah ada kita. Dan untuk itulah kami ada. " 

Terimakasih untuk tetap hidup di sini. Terimakasih untuk terus ada di sini. Terimakasih untuk mau mencintai hidup apa adanya.  Dan untuk umur 18 ini-- aku ada.

PS: Andrea and me made this poem. Isn't it beautiful?

Welcome 18

Whoa can't believe I say this: I'm 18 now! 

Well, yesterday is 27th July. Now, 28th July. I'm 18 now. I'm legal to do anything. I'm legal to drink, to smoke, to date any guy. But hey, I won't do it. I always say this before. Getting older means getting better, getting wiser, getting maturer, and this, and that. I'm growing up (psychic and mental). My Mom and Dad are getting older. I have to face this world. I have to prepare for the worst. God never said life is easy, but He said there's a way in every single problem. So, I don't need to worry too much. I'm 18 and I just thank God so much for everything that ever happened in my life. Life is though, so the only thing I know that-- don't give up. 

18. I know which one is friend, true friend, friend that stays but only for temporary, friend that stays in bad and good times. So, to you guys. I just want to say thank you. Thank you so much. Thank you for all the wishes, all the prayers, all the things that you guys ever taught to me. At the end, I love you guys.

To Mom and Dad. Thank you for everything. Both of you have loved me since I was a fetus till now. Both of you always make me say: I'm proud to have you guys as my parent. Please stay with me. Please let me making you proud of me as you guys always make me proud. I'm trying my best to make you proud. Just please give me a lot of time. Please stay with me. That's the only thing that I want.

To my sister. Veby Ciu. You're a part of me. Because when God made you He was thinking of me. All I can say, thank you for being greatest sister I've ever got. Do I need more when I have you in my life? Yucks, I'm feeling so eew now with my words. You know, girl. I love you. :-) 

Thank you for everyone. Thank you God. Thank you life. Thank you my '17'. Thank you love. Thank you blog. And I see you next year, so stick to me till next year. :-)

She's amazing. I swear I will never change for her.
Tons of tweets!

Thank you for guys!

You guys made my day

Look! There'sAnkatama my favorite Anouncer :")

Andrea, stay. Stay with me. Stay beside me and don't change. 

So, thank you guys for made my day. I love you guys beyond the words.

Wednesday, July 4, 2012

... For everything

To: Everyone who reads this post

I am sorry for being rude sometimes.
I am sorry that I have not been a good friend for you, guys.
I am sorry for every words that hurt your feeling.
I am sorry because I am such a (Ah you name it, guys)
I am sorry for everything.

PS: Maaf. Teman-teman saya minta maaf kalau jika tanpa sengaja saya membuat anda tersinggung. Saya hanyalah saya. Saya mengucapkan apa yang ada di otak saya. Saya tidak pernah bermaksud. Sekali lagi. Maaf. 

Currently Listening: Maafkan (Tak Sempurna)

L is for Love.

I've fallen in love for thousand times. For example: "This novel is great. I love it!", "Whoa. Andrew Garfield is so cute. I love him!", "I love hot chocolate!", "Real Madrid is my favorite football club! I love Real Madrid!", and this and that. 
I've fallen in love with wrong person. I've fallen in love with right person on wrong time. I've fallen in love with wrong person on wrong time. I've fallen in love with him. I've fallen in love with her (It means something good. Something good about friendship. Swear, I'm not lesbian.), and I've fallen in love with myself. 

But wait... What is love? 

Love is beautiful yet painful. Love is the answer and love is the question too. Love is intangible. Love is like a bacon-- everyone loves bacon. Love is this. Love is that. Love is everything. Love is universal. 

Love is built a friendship. Love is the pillar for friendship. Love works to weaken us too. We mistake sex for love. You can do sex with anyone, anytime, and anywhere. Love is not like that. Somebody told me about this:- 

"Love is when two people are walking next to each other and all of sudden they find themselves holding hands, and they don't know what happened."
Do you know the real secret of true happiness? It's love. Love makes man happy. There's love between children and parents, husband and wife, brother and sister, the teacher and the student, between us and God. Love is the storehouse of happiness. Love is supposed to be a beautiful moment. But there must be someone  who do not even agree with "Love is beautiful". You know why? Because you are disappointed with love. You cannot blame love-- but you can blame your lover. Love is never wrong, but people do-- we do.

"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away." --  1 Corinthians 13:4-8

Once I read a post about love. The writer wrote something about love. The writer said:  Love is like driving. There are many rules you have to follow (Yep, I agree), and signs you have to look out for. There are ways to do it safely, and ways to endanger yourself and those around you. You've gotta satay on one side of the road, and know when to brake and when to accelerate. You can't break the rules, or someone will get hurt (When someone gets hurt, he/she will be disappointed with love). Love can get you to places. It carries you long distances, and protects you from outside elements. You can't drive without knowledge beforehand, the same is true of love.

Don't you agree, readers?

Love makes you sad. Love makes you happy. Love makes you laugh. Love makes you cry. Love makes you smile. Love makes you stay alive. Love makes you realise that there is no everlasting love between you and human (People will die at the end. There is no forever.) Love between you and God is an everlasting love (Nah, I believe in it). Love taught me how to love your parents, friends, people, your pet, and God without no reasons. Because when there are a thousand reasons, it is not even love. Love is like a thief and fart. It comes without telling you when it will come.  Love makes it possible to live, enjoy the present moment. Without any worries about what was or what will be (Does it matter?). Love is a miraculous feeling. 

Talking about love is like there is no 'The End'. But at the end. All I can say is-- love is weird and odd. 

PS: Love is painful. Sometimes I hate people because I just love them so much. I just hate the fact that people change. And I'm afraid they will change. 

Currently listening: Selamanya Cinta (D'Cinnamons)