I have been chassing you for 3 years. And I guess it's over. I mean I do still like you but I am sure I have to stop chassing you. Like, really done. From you I learned two things: The first one is I fall in love and I learn that some love don't last. Second, I have to learn The Art of Letting Go.
I just cannot believe it that I just wrote my own '(500) Days of Summer'. I have to admit it that you're special. I mean like I never cry for a guy before in front of my friends. But today, I do not know it's because I'm too sensitive today (You know, girl's thing. Period) or what else. But I was crying in front of my friends. And I thought I'm strong enough but I was wrong. Last night was absolutely the worst night ever. Is this even a real life or a nightmare? Heard that you're dating with someone and you fall in love with her. I just wanted to puke when heard that. I know I'm such a dumb prick. I've been warned by Andrea-- but I didn't listen to her. I still remember what Andrea said to me "You should know beforehand that sometimes though you like someone, they could fucking destroy you. Literally, I want the best for you and I know this couldn't come just from any person."
I heard that your dreams came true.
Guess she gave you things I didn't give to you.
The funniest thing is I never cry whenever hear Adele's songs or the songs that my class use to sing it before. And today, I just could not let myself not to cry. The songs are the words that I try to explain.
I have a lot of questions in my head? Are you even sure that she is the right one for you? Is she even the real girl that you want?
Oh please, I never feel like this before. It's the worst ever-- and I just do not want to feel the same things again. I am just tired. I just do not know what to say. I am pissed off and want to burn his house at the same time. I want to run from this whole drama and make a new one. I feel like 'Hey it's not your lucky day! Bad luck. Try again tomorrow!'... Everything that I do for you, I just never can make you be mine. Such a shame for me because girls should not chase for a guy... But I'm glad that he's dating and it proves that he's not a gay.
But from this moment, I know it's my time to have my new beginning! Because when I want a happy ending-- I just have to let myself have a new beginning. Maybe my happy ending isn't with him. Yes, when the right time comes someone will come along and I believe-- it will be worth it. I will be happier than I will ever be. I have learnt something. God could mend my broken heart and one day I am gonna love again-- and once it's with the person that God created for me and it's going to be worth it. The worth guy is going to be worth to wait for. I owe Ted Mosby. He said "The only thing that can really heal a broken heart... is time.". Yes, Ted's right. I agree.
Hence, I will be okay eventually. I am gonna be fine. I will enjoy this adventure. I promise to myself, I am going to be extremely fine-- oh dear, I am gonna be awesome one. So, hell yeah! I hope you'll happy with your decision and your life!
"Sometimes you just have to delete the message, delete the numbers and move on. You do not have to forget who that person was to you, only accept that they are not that person anymore."
No matter what happened, I will keep moving.
PS: I thank God for whoever broke Adele's heart. Because of that, Adele made a great story to tell.
Currently listening: Adele 21 (Adele)