Monday, May 28, 2012

.... I'm only good at being young

HELLO EVERYONE! AH LOOK AT MY HAPPY FACE! LOOK AT THAT! I'M OFFICIALLY GRADUATED! Yeah, but it's not over yet. For some people who already got accepted to university, I just want to say congratulation and enjoy your holiday! But for me and the others who are struggling with Super Intensive course, I just want to say let's keep fighting! Two weeks more before entrance test! Yeah, I really want to go to Public University. I want UI so bad. I need a tons of lucks from you guys! And anyway, I'm just so terribly sorry for my absence :-( I was so busy and lazy. Hahaha. But hey I'm still alive and able to write a post. Hehe. Well guys, here we go, I'm gonna write something about growing up. 

The thing is, ever since I finished my National Exam, I've been so terribly down and confused. I do not know what should I do after high school. When high school is over it means a new step-- transition. From being a teenager to adult. It sounds funny when I watched a cartoon and it brought me back to the reality that not everything lasts. It's not like I can always stay a kid and play Harvest Moon or watch Tom and Jerry forever. 

Growing up is a cycle of life that leads us to a goal. A future. Scared of growing up means scared of future.  Growing up is one of the most terrifying things in the world. Growing up means doing something on your own; whether it's going to dinner or buying your groceries. Growing up means no more procastinating until the last minute on those tasks I do not want to do! Yeah, I need to learn to prioritiz and manage my time. Growing up is sad. Growing up means no more being called inefficient too! 

I'm feeling nervous. Is feeling this nervous just a normal part of growing up? I know it is normal to be worried about certain things in various phases of our lives. For me, I'm worry about things like grades, getting into university (Now, I have to think how to get accepted into a university. Public university), dating, and being like by peers. My mom said it's normal. She said these kinds of worries will fade with time.

Yeah I've accepted about the fact I'm growing up and my parent is getting older. I just can't help but feel so sad.  And from this moment, I just realized. I'm just too scared. Scared of growing up. But scared it's just a feeling. A cup of feelings that must be resisted. 

And my friend said "We're not growing up, we just learn to act appropriately in public." A few examples of act appropriately in public such as don't speak our mind because its impolite, don't laugh to loudly because its improper. It's not growing up. Yes, we just learn to act appropriately in public. 

At the end. I don't know what I'm gonna write on this post. I'm still looking for the real meaning of growing up. Gah, writing this stuffs just made me feel so emotional. :|
Anyway mom and dad said "You don't need to worry. Life is just like riding a roller-coaster. Growing up is just like riding a roller-coaster. Up and down. All you need is a plastic if you want to puke." 

Anyone know what that means? Anyone? Please?

Yeah, I guess it's the end of today's post. I will write another post again. See you! Take care guys! 

PS: Jeremiah 29:11 said: "For I know the plans I have for you, declares the LORD, 'plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." 

"If everything has been written down, so why worry..."
See, Am I growing up now?

Currently listening: Grew A Day Older (Dewi Lestari)